Heartbreak

Heartbreak doesn't always have to be because you just broke up with your significant other. It also occurs when you realize that a friend isn't making the necessary effort in keeping the friendship together. If the person doesn't make the effort to even talk to you, it's time to let the friendship go. This is my lesson in learning to let go, I guess.

Growing Pains

The pains of growing up:

Letting go of the people who don't make you happy anymore

Learning that not every guy will want to marry you
Difficult trials
Realizing who your real friends are
Facing the real world and all it entails

 
The joys of growing up:

Enjoying each new day 
Watching the sun set
Spending time with family
Having those tough times to make you a stronger person
Reminiscing the good ole days 
Making new friends 
Having that one friend I can talk to about anything


(There are many more pains and joys in life, but these are the only ones I could come up with).

In the end, the joys of life out weigh the pain. In the moment we may think that this trial will never end. But let me tell you something, it will. The biggest trial I have ever faced in my life is still ongoing, but I will be able to get through it. I will not lie, I have had so many thoughts of just giving up. I know that giving up is not the answer. If I gave up, then the enemy would win. It's not the light at the end of the tunnel that is helping me along, it's the light throughout the tunnel that is making this journey a little easier.

I Deserve Happiness

I deserve everything that makes me happy. And those people who have not been there for me, then today is the day that I will no longer let you drag me down. These people I speak of probably don't know that they have affected me negatively, but all the same, they have. And I let them. Its days like this that I love. I realize that I have been dragged down to the deepest hole in the darkness. It's like the story of the lobster being cooked, the lobster had no idea what was happening to him until it was too late. But today, I write to tell you that I will not let other people's silence make me silent. No. We only let people influence our lives if we let them. I have learned that other people's opinions or judgements should not affect you to the point where you feel defeated. I will not let these people's lack of conversation drag me down any further. Today is the day that I will put them behind me. I deserve happiness.