Have Faith in Yourself

We must have a little more faith in ourselves. We think we cannot go through with something because it's just too hard. Yes, it may be hard, but it's never too hard if you have help at your side. If you have someone helping you along the way, it makes everything that much easier to face. Find that one person that you trust enough to drop all your worries and struggles on. When you can begin to walk on your own, continue to have that faith in yourself that you can pull through this tough time. I know that I've said this in multiple of my posts lately, but I believe in you, you can do this. You are stronger than you think you are.

You Can Do it, I Know You Can

As life goes on, we encounter different obstacles, we become stronger with every stride we take. We may feel weak and useless now, but that inadequacy will turn into strength. We may know what to do but don't have the mental strength to do it. But let me tell you something, you can do it. If I can do it, so can you. Have the faith in yourself to follow through. If you don't have faith in yourself, know that I have faith in you.

There is Ability in Every Disability

I have always loved this quote. This man is an inspiration. When I was younger I always thought that I had a disability, but boy was I wrong. I have it great compared to some people. As I grew up, I never really let my leg bother me. I have never had muscle in my left leg, and probably never will, and I'm okay with that. I embrace it. One thing that I tell myself whenever I am doubting in my ability to do hard things, I say, "You, my darling are strong. You are a miracle. You are on this earth for a reason, a reason you may not know of yet, but you are someone's reason for living. You can and will pull through. You are an amazing person, I believe in you." I am eternally grateful that I was given this blessing to see how precious life is. I would like to say that I have always had a positive outlook on life. I will always love life, even if it is hard sometimes. I cannot express to you how much I am grateful for every trial I have been given in life. When I look back, I realize that it has all made me the person I am today. People ask if I would rewind to any point in my life and redo anything, I say, "No, I am the person I am today because of what I have learned from all those hard times and good times." If we strive to always have a positive outlook on life, we will be a happier people, and we will realize how blessed we truly are. Don't count your hardships or your disabilities, count your blessings-you will then realize how blessed you are, and you will smile that much bigger. Be positive. Be happy. Love life and live it to the fullest.

Take Risks

I absolutely love this quote!



Life is all about taking risks. If we do not do those things that scare us most, we will never overcome them. Life is full of risks and are necessary to become the people we are meant to become. But the choices we make are ours, and ours alone, no one can make them for us. If we find the courage within ourselves to conquer the hard things, we will be stronger than we were before. In the moment, we may think we are inadequate for the task at hand, but we can and will pull through, it may be a hard and long process, but you can do it. If you (yes, you reading this post) are going through a something that seems impossible to overcome, don't give up. You can do it, I know you can. It may drain you of your strength for today, but you can do it. Draining today of it's strength, only leaves you that much wiser for tomorrow and you will know how to deal with it in the future. Take the risks life gives you, you will not regret it.

I'm Still Single...Surprise, Surprise

I may regret saying all of this, but here it goes.
Want to know my darkest secret? Here it is: I've never kissed a guy. *gasp* I know right?! I'm actually okay with that. But one thing that I have been talking about for the longest time is how much I want a relationship. It may be a bad thing to want a relationship, but it's the truth. I wish I could just go up to someone I may or may not like (yes, there is a certain someone) and ask them out on a date. That would be awesome because I could spend more time with him, but it was on my terms, not his. Like one of my friends said this weekend, "When a guy asks you on a date, you know that he likes you to some degree. But if you ask them, you never really know." So I'll just wait I guess. My train of thought is that if I asked him on a date, it may be awkward. Yuck. But one thing I have been telling myself is stated below in picture/quote form. I need to have the patience and wait. I hate waiting, but I'll do it. If only he would get the drift that I like him. Now that's wishful thinking. Oh well, life goes on; boyfriend or not.

Pain of Discipline

This quote is one of the reasons why I am in the condition I am in at this point. This last week I was going through some major internal debates. I was a wreck, to say the least. I have come out of my cave known as my room and it feels so good. I have been so self-indulged lately that I basically had depression (and I don't use that term loosely, I use that term for what it really means--true depression). It was the hardest thing to get out of bed in the mornings and I just didn't want to deal with anything or talk to anyone. I am not fully out of this rut, but today was my first day out of the apartment and actually did something with multiple people and I really enjoyed it. As of today I will choose the pain of discipline rather than the pain of regret because I will never know what I might miss out on if I flake out on everything I have ever known. Also, I will be happier if I stay true to what I know what is right deep down. I'm not sure of anything at this point, but it's okay because I don't have to have it all figured out to move forward.

My Ramblings

Those who we tell our secrets to are typically our confidants. Sometimes when we tell someone the things we were hesitant to tell anyone else, they give us advice and tell us what they think. Sometimes we don't want their words, they may be words we need to hear, but we are not ready to hear them. Those whom I have told, don't be disappointed in me. I know fully well what I am doing. I am disappointed in myself and am beating myself up about it. But I need to do this. I need to follow through. I need this break. I have lived my life to please others. I am making the change now to live my life for me. I don't care what anyone else thinks about what I do with my life. It's my life. If you don't approve, go die in a hole. Some people may think I'm throwing my life down the drain by doing this, but it's the only way I can truly get back onto my own two feet. It may take awhile, but I'll get there eventually.

Being Withdrawn

As many people know, I have been withdrawn for reasons that I will not explain. I saw this quote today and thought it explained my situation perfectly.

Smile! :)

 

You know that moment when you are so worn down with everything that you forget to smile? Yep, that’s me today. Darn you college.

I keep telling myself that whenever I have a bad day; there is never a bad day, just bad moments. Turn that pouty face into a smiley one. Smile even though you are having a tough time, it makes you feel better :) After all, you are most beautiful when you have a smile. :) 

RISKY!

You know when you send a very risky text or email? Uh, yeah, I just sent a risky email. YIKES! We'll see what the response is... Here's to sweaty palms and a frantic mind! (Should I have really sent that?!)

You, My Darling, Are Strong

Yes, I know I just finished a post but I saw this quote and I could not go on without saying something that came to my mind. Here's the quote:

Even though you may feel inadequate to face your road of trials, you are strong.

Even though you feel like breaking down and giving up, you are strong.

Even though life throws you seemingly impossible curve balls, you are strong.

Even though the voice in your head tells you that you are worthless, you are strong.

Even though you feel an emptiness inside you, you are strong.

Even though you feel like you can't get up, you are strong.

You, my darling, are strong. No matter what anyone says.

If the hard things are lingering in your life, face them head on and don't shy away. Don't get me wrong, it's okay to take a step back and assess what is happening, but don't step back too far. Even if you do step back too far, you have two feet, walk forward. Even though it may be the hardest thing you have done, I know you can do it. I believe in you. You are strong.

You can do this. You, my darling, are strong.

Don't ever give up, there are better days ahead.

To whoever is reading this, I love you. 

Madi

Why So Quiet?

 People ask me why I'm so quiet, and sometimes withdrawn. Here's the explanation: 

Amazing Les Miserables Video!

If you like Les Miserables, go to the link below. You won't regret it! This man has a breathtaking voice! My favorite is Jean Valjean.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R9IWAxSpgKA

First Post, AH!

DISCLAIMER: This is my first blog post ever, so bear with me :)

Today is best I have felt in a VERY long time. And I wanted to tell someone about it, even if it is just a white wall.

Let's start off with the thing that started my day off so great. But before I get to that...I am currently studying psychology at BYU-Idaho for those of you who don't know. Anyways, at the beginning of the semester, a mere three weeks ago, I was taking 17 credits. Yes, I know, I was crazy. So this morning I dropped my hardest class, so now I only have 14 credits!!! I feel as if I can stand that much taller:) So now I start Monday's, Wednesday's and Friday's at 10:15am instead of at 9. It's heaven, I tell you! Even it is only an hour difference:) 

If you saw me today grinning ear to ear, then it may or may not have been caused by a certain email from a certain someone:) He just knows what to say to make my day better, especially when I'm going through a tough time. So glad I have such a great friend I can turn to. 

Not only did I have a great day because of dropping a class and getting an email, but also because I had a great time with my roommates and FHE brothers up at the sand dunes here in Rexburg. Also, three of my roommates and I went grocery shopping tonight (that in its self was a fun adventure) and I not only bought stuff for me, but I also got some stuff for some friends. I forgot how much I love doing random nice things for people! I need to do it more often!

I have so much to say but I need to go to bed! But one last thing...my quote for the day, "We can't always see where the road leads, but God promises there's something better up ahead we just have to trust him." This quote really hit home for me because I sometimes have trust issues, so I have to keep telling myself over and over again that I can get through this IF I trust in the Lord.

Until next time! Have a great day! And remember to smile, it helps! :)

Madi